today, annabelle is two weeks old.
in a lot of ways, motherhood is not at all what i expected. yet then in other ways, i feel like we’ve been doing this forever.
we’ve settled into a little routine of 3 hour intervals: eat, nap, diaper change, snuggle time, eat, nap, repeat. during the first week she slept constantly, but this week she’s been much more alert during her awake times, which gives us ample opportunities to capture her funny faces on camera. lately her favorite time to play is 4-6am… somehow this is not as fun for mom as it is for belle.
one thing i’m grateful for is how well she’s been eating. at the pediatrician yesterday she had gained another 4 ounces - up to 7 lbs 15 oz now, 5 oz above her birth weight! i’m told this is a good thing.
i knew i would love her beyond imagination. but i wasn’t prepared for the all-encompassing, take-your-breath-away, deep down in your soul kind of love. i stare at her eyes that remind me of jason’s, her lips that remind me of my own, and i hold my own breath while waiting to watch her lungs fill again and again. it’s terrifying, really, the depth of emotion that i feel, my heart filled with both the desire for her to be happy and the desire to keep her safe.
it’s only been two weeks and my love for her grows each day… imagine one month, one year, a lifetime?
belle, i’m so happy you’re ours.